Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Counting my Blessings!!!!!
True Colors of individuals will always surface, it may be immediately, or it may take years to surface, they will however surface..
This is a time in my life to shine, I'm trying to Shine brightly above the dark clouds and starting to feel at ease and in balance again. Life is a roller coaster and you never know what tommarrow will bring you or anyone of us. So love those who you love and keep your friends close. I've learned so much these past weeks and I know that blessings are being poured down on me and my boys. It's nice to remember that no matter what, there is a God who loves all of his children.
I've been reading alot in my books and it's amazing how much wealth of knowledge there is out there, I just want to learn all that I can....I can't get enough of it.
One day I know I'll look back on this small period of time in my life and think wow, I did it! I'm taking one day at a time, and finding joy in the simple things that life brings.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Why?
I really would like to find a man who can appreciate my strengths and weaknesses. A man who can lift me higher and love me for me. I want to find a love that is unconditional and a man who will be there for me through it all. Until then I'm going to be single and free, finding myself after a divorce and all the things that you go through, the thoughts, the feelings the laughter and the tears. I'm amazed what a turn this year has brought my life and to my boys. Never in my life would I have thought I would be in this position, a single mom of 3 boys. I'm in the position I'm in for a reason, I'm still searching for that reason, I know it's going to make me stronger and I'm learning alot through this process. There is alot of depth to me, so I hope to find someone who is similar. I'm a strong woman I know, but even strong womean have a tuff time dealing with tuff situations...
I'm blogging this just cause its good for me to express myself.
My boys have to be my focus, I'm trying to find hobbies and things to fill my time to fill my emptiness, there is alot the world has to offer, and I don't want that. I don't want to be lost anymore than I've already been. I'm searching for the peace that I felt before. I'm doing alot of soul searching and been in my head alot, that's a hard place to be. Sifting through the dirt of my life.
I'll be good, I just needed to get these thoughts out there. Thanks for reading!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Reflective Thoughts
Life is a funny thing, just when you think you have everything figured out, something happens and you realize you know nothing, then the growth comes when you work and strive to figure it out all over again.
I've learned a few life lessons this month and I'm going to continue to learn so I can be that much better at being me.
I've been focusing on being a better mom and loving the boys and teaching them good values, and playing with them to keep them smiling! They are growing so fast. I remember when they were babies and just feels like yesterday, but it's not and time just goes by....and will continue too, so I'm going to enjoy these moments with them and enjoy watching them grow.
As the seasons change in the weather, seasons change in our lives....and we just need to roll with the punches take the good with the bad and learn what it is we need to learn. There are no accidents and everything has it's purpose, it all happens for a reason.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
What a Day!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Kylor Starts 2nd grade!
Friday, August 21, 2009
I have a Job now what?
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Jobs, Where?????
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Settled in to our new place.
Friday, July 10, 2009
What has happened lately?
It was of course heart breaking for us. I'm still trying to make since of the situation. I know I must be strong and continue to tell the boys their Dad loves them, but they do feel bad about it. The boys and I have moved into a nice Apartment to start a new life for ourselves. I've been busy with the move, and getting the kids settled and starting to register them for their schools and keep up a postive attitude for them and myself. It's not easy though. I know I am being watched over and there is a great peace that has been with me, though the pain and loss is sometimes unbearable. I'm sorting through those feelings you go through when something this drastic happens. I'm doing good though. We dropped off Steve to the Airport on the 9th and the kids seem to have settled down and we can resume our transition back to it just being the 4 of us. Now that's it's become a perminant situation and not a temporary one. I have to be Strong so that is what I'm doing. Thanks for all your prayers. I'm so glad I have great friends and family to help me during this difficult time.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Quinn's New toy
Audrey's new hobby!
Kylor's 7th Birthday!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Kylor's School Birthday Lunch!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Steve's Count Down to Utah
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Joys of being a Mother!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Adventures at Classic Skating
Thursday, April 23, 2009
A fun day!
We picked my mom up and dropped her off, We hung out at their house and they have a fun house, they have chickens and pigeons and I took the kids for a ride on the lawn mower tractor, it has a trailer too, the kids sit in the wagon part. I let Kylor and Orion sit on my lap and drive. They have baby chicks that just hatched this week, so Kylor and Orion held one, Quinn wanted to squeeze it's head so I helped him gently pet it. Quinn's become such a little tiger! We just hung out for a while before we headed home. It was nice to just relax after having to run around all day! Wednesday's are my busy days, since I drop off and pick up Orion from school, I work too, so I take an extended lunch and do alot of running around mid day.
I've been running after I put the kids down to bed the past week or so I'm starting to train for the 5k on July 4th, plus it's a great stress reliever to get out and just run!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Happy Easter!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Spring Break!
I took Orion the the eye Dr. to check his eyes checked out and he has a slight stigmatism and a little far-sighted, the Dr. seems to think he'll out grow it and won't need glasses for it, but we'll test it again once he starts reading.
I took the boys to the park last night and this time I didn't take the stroller, I literally was chasing 3 kids around, Quinn was loving the ducks and laughed at them, I'm glad Ky and Orion pretty much know how to stay on the playground cause, I was chasing Quinn, he doesn't just walk around, he was running everywhere. It's kinda nice, I don't have to worry about him being left behind, he knows how to keep up just fine.
Orion still picked me my favorite flowers, dandilions, he's my outdoor boy and always wants to play outside. It's nice to have good weather! Just think a few more months and it will be summer YAY!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
179th General Conference notes:
Deter F. Uchdorf- Atonement and plan of redemtion, finding happiness and joy during these hard times. The place to find lasting happiness is through the gospel of Jesus Christ. It unlocks the door to true happiness. Happiness doesn't come from man, it comes from the Creater himself. The more we feel the spirit the more we will extend ourselves to others, and become more forgiving, peacemakers, etc. Apply and reapply the gospel prinicples everday. Knowing the seed is good is not enough, we must nurish it and Disciplship is a jouney and doesn't just happen over night. It is to accept Gods will and not just our own. Now is the time to come together in our Marriage and families and embrace the gospel and all that it teaches. The Gospel refines us and helps us learn from our mistakes. Atonement has the power to make us whole again when we are willing to REPENT! We see ourselves just for today, Heavenly Father see's us Forever. Start where you are, it's never too late. Walk in his way, the Savior will be on ourside helping us through.
~Neil C. Anderson (the newest General Auth) "The Lord will shape the back to fit the burden" He talked about it's our responsibility to keep our covenants and it ill be a badge of honor throughout Eternity. Remeber who we are, we are not alone in our desires to do good. Plead to the Lord on what we should be. All we are and all we will ever be we ow to our Lord and Savior.
~Steven E. Snow- talked about change and how to get through or over come the challenges with change in our life. 4 points he talked about Follow the Prophet & Keep and eternal prespective, this our time for testing and to test our Have faith : more forward in faith and faith and doubt cannot exsist together one will dispell the other Be of good cheer! There is change that may come to our lives that is not welcome, unemplyoment, death, divorce. The point is accept those changes and get on with our lives he was saying.
I loved Jefferey R. Holland talk about those who are alone, due to different reasons, I can relate to this I've felt very alone this year. He talked about The Atonement and Even Jesus felt alone at the time his friends and apostles should have been standing beside him. We don't have to feel alone we have the Savior with us. "I will not leave you comfortless" The Savior taught. The session closed by our beloved Prophet he talked about three different early Pioneers who left their homeland to go to Zion, the stories were very touching the best part I like what this quote "The Future is as bright as your Faith"
I just got done reading the best book it's called the "PEACEMAKER" it was a great book. I've learned alot from reading it, it's one my bishop suggested I read. It relates bible stories to experiences in a family and marriage. It's one I'm going to keep reading over and over. There is alot of depth to that book, I still am thinking about what I've read and I finished it two nights ago. I believe in eternal families, and I'm so greatful for the blessing of the gospel in my life. I've had my faith tested, but I'm glad I've been able to repent and come back to where I know I should be. Love is a power thing. I can't even begin to see how much Our Father in Heaven loves us. I can only imagine, he's given us so many ways to get back to him, if only we listen and follow his teachings. I really enjoyed this conference weekend.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Thoughts on Marriage!
Crazy Cousins Outting To Desert Star Theater in SLC
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Loving Super Mario Galaxy on the Wii!
Tonight was such a clear night sky, I took a minute to myself around mid night and took a drive. When I got back, I looked up and saw the beautiful Stars outside the sunroof, When ever I look out there in space, the first thing that usually crosses my mind is how pretty it is. I found the Constillation Orion, the same one that we named Orion after. I still remember talking to Steve while we were still dating and saying that one day we'll name one of our sons Orion, that is a good memory. I love the Stars there is something magical about looking out into the heavens. I can't wait for more clear nights like these ones where I can go out and have more minutes to myself.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Quinn Dr App. 17 Mo
This afternoon after Kylor got Homework done, we played the Wii together, They boys like me playing Super Mario Galaxy, it's a hard game but they cheer me on and we passed alot of levels and we were all so excited!!! I've never been the big game player, but I have to say I love playing it, we played for almost 2.5 hours, It was sad. I lost track of time and I had to hurry out the door to FHEN at 6:30to the church and that was a great time there. That was my day today, it's never boring around here. oh yeah HAPPY GREEN DAY!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Brotherly Love!
Disney on Ice
Monday, March 9, 2009
Sunday
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Orion's funny comment
Hilarious Movie!
I took the boys to the dollar theater to see this. I really have spring fever cause I'm wanting to get out and do things. I was brave and took all three by myself to the 7:15 showing. It was hard at first Quinn was tired, but luckily he feel asleep for me and didn't wake up until the end. The movie had me and the boys cracking up nearly the whole time. We loved it!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Playing in the back
This is a cute video of the kids playing in the back! It was a nice day, it was a bit cold but the sun did come out for a bit, so we took daisy with us for a walk around the block, the boys rode on their scooters and I had Quinn in the stoller then they played in the back yard for a while. That is the same rope swing their Daddy played on growing up, what a great thing! **Note:watch Daisy run around, she's hilarious, we all had a good laugh about her bouncing everywhere, she really wants to fly. When she jumps we were laughing so hard, she looks like a rabbit! Enjoy!**
Our Good morning Greeters!
Thursday morning, I was getting the boys ready for school, we had our curtains open and I look up and see these 6 deer staring at me through the window, I had to get this on video they were so close. Kylor thought it was so neat! Kylor after they bounced away said he's so happy we are in Utah now, cause we have deer in our back yard.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Mommy and Me!
Daisy the Dog
Kylor Starts Piano
Monday, March 2, 2009
Latest in the crazy house~
Kylor paid his tithing willingly for the first real time today. Always before he wanted to take it back cause it's "his" but he paid tithing on his chore money and he was happy to do it. I was very proud of him. He's growing so much, he's a gentlemen too, opening doors for other people at church. He's a great kid!
*I have say now that we are approaching our 4.5 month mark since we left the island and started living separate lives, I'm really tired of having Steve gone. I miss him so much, and it's really hard raising the boys without him, it really takes to to share the work load in a family, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed of my responsibilities and I don't think June will come quick enough* sometimes I think what the heck were we thinking!!!!???? but I know in the end it will be ok and what happens is for our better, it's a growing time for us. *
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Kylor & Piano Lessons
Last Day of swimming lessons



Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Steve's Latest!
Celine Dion! Taking Chances Tour
