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Sorry I've not posted for a very long time I totally forget about this page I used to be really good about posting!
Updates:
Kylor has lost several teeth
Orion is the funniset mini me
Quinn begins potty training
We'll me I'm going back to school in the fall!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Santa was good to the boys this year!

Counting my Blessings!!!!!

One quote that has made an impression in my life this past month that has been shared to me by two important men in my life....

True Colors of individuals will always surface, it may be immediately, or it may take years to surface, they will however surface..

This is a time in my life to shine, I'm trying to Shine brightly above the dark clouds and starting to feel at ease and in balance again. Life is a roller coaster and you never know what tommarrow will bring you or anyone of us. So love those who you love and keep your friends close. I've learned so much these past weeks and I know that blessings are being poured down on me and my boys. It's nice to remember that no matter what, there is a God who loves all of his children.
I've been reading alot in my books and it's amazing how much wealth of knowledge there is out there, I just want to learn all that I can....I can't get enough of it.

One day I know I'll look back on this small period of time in my life and think wow, I did it! I'm taking one day at a time, and finding joy in the simple things that life brings.

Sunday

October Fest Snowbird

Why?

Ok, a question for men out there? Why do men just want one thing from me? Do I just have that look or what? Any why do they like my Ass so much????
I really would like to find a man who can appreciate my strengths and weaknesses. A man who can lift me higher and love me for me. I want to find a love that is unconditional and a man who will be there for me through it all. Until then I'm going to be single and free, finding myself after a divorce and all the things that you go through, the thoughts, the feelings the laughter and the tears. I'm amazed what a turn this year has brought my life and to my boys. Never in my life would I have thought I would be in this position, a single mom of 3 boys. I'm in the position I'm in for a reason, I'm still searching for that reason, I know it's going to make me stronger and I'm learning alot through this process. There is alot of depth to me, so I hope to find someone who is similar. I'm a strong woman I know, but even strong womean have a tuff time dealing with tuff situations...
I'm blogging this just cause its good for me to express myself.
My boys have to be my focus, I'm trying to find hobbies and things to fill my time to fill my emptiness, there is alot the world has to offer, and I don't want that. I don't want to be lost anymore than I've already been. I'm searching for the peace that I felt before. I'm doing alot of soul searching and been in my head alot, that's a hard place to be. Sifting through the dirt of my life.
I'll be good, I just needed to get these thoughts out there. Thanks for reading!

Reflective Thoughts

Wow, Some of the things I've done....Divorce has a way of changing you and how you view the world. I've been sifting through my thoughts and feelings on my life. And here is the quote that fits me the most:

Life is a funny thing, just when you think you have everything figured out, something happens and you realize you know nothing, then the growth comes when you work and strive to figure it out all over again.
I've learned a few life lessons this month and I'm going to continue to learn so I can be that much better at being me.

I've been focusing on being a better mom and loving the boys and teaching them good values, and playing with them to keep them smiling! They are growing so fast. I remember when they were babies and just feels like yesterday, but it's not and time just goes by....and will continue too, so I'm going to enjoy these moments with them and enjoy watching them grow.
As the seasons change in the weather, seasons change in our lives....and we just need to roll with the punches take the good with the bad and learn what it is we need to learn. There are no accidents and everything has it's purpose, it all happens for a reason.

Fun lately!

Fun days!

Recent Pix

Kylor starting 2nd Grade
Orion first day of school

Swing'n Quinn

What a Day!

Life will happen so let it happen, this is what happened today. I was almost ticketed for speeding on my way to my soccer game I was going 84 in a 65, good thing I have a good record thats the reason why I got out of it. What a blessing! I have been doing alot of thinking about my life and music is helping me see where I'm headed. Orion woke up with a severe ear ache I took him to the Dr. and he's got Swimmers Ear, yuckky! poor guy he's in alot of pain, he has meds now though so much better. I took the boys to the park and we fed the ducks, they had a good time, Orion played but he was exhausted when we were done there. I thought we would spend some quality family time together, earlier this week, Kylor had a bad day so I spent that night writing love notes to each of the boys. I really love them so much, I'm juggling alot with them, but I so love them, it's the fog that sometimes makes it hard, but then I re-focus and then I'm good for another week. The Fog I referred to is everything I need to do. I'm just trying to be super Mom somedays so I need to take it easy I know...But Mom's work never complete when you see all that needs to get done...LOL!!!

Kylor Starts 2nd grade!

Back to school we go. Kylor is back to school now, He was so excited to go. I dropped him off and I saw my good friend Lynn there and come to find out her son Kanalu is in the same class and Ky and him sit right next to each other. I was so happy to see her and the fact that our kids are in the same class makes it so awesome! It's so exciting to have a new school year start and see Kylor growing up so fast! He's such a good boy!

I have a Job now what?

Wow have not posted for a while. Life has but so crazy, I thought it was crazy before, boy was I wrong!!!! I got a job collections, I know lovely, but it's income, I need money more than anything right now, My other wants are on hold until I can figure out this single Mom stuff. My new stress is dealing with 3 different schedules now that school is about to start again. Kylor is excited to Start school he gets to ride the bus and Orion starts head Start on the 9th of September. Quinn is starting to talk he said baby today and he said stop that yesterday, he's learning to say lots of new things each day. I can't beleive how much life has changed for me. I love my boys so much, they are growing so fast and I know the recent changes have been hard on them, I'm exhausted and worn out all the time, but somehow I have the strength to keep on going, I have no idea how I'm managing it all. I've been keeping busy in my social life and it's great but I think I may need to slow it down a bit, sometimes too much fun can be overwhelming, I enjoy the quiet week nights though that's for sure, the weekends are a different story. I'm still taking one day at a time and trying to fugure it all out. It's going to take alot of time!!!!!!

Jobs, Where?????

I've applied for almost every job I've seen come open, I've had three interviews and no luck yet, I'm still being patient, but it's hard, everyone is looking for jobs and they are just not avaliable, somethings got to come through soon.

Settled in to our new place.

We'll It's been a few weeks since my last post. I'm sorry. Life has been a bit hectic, but I'm doing good. I've been on the job search, seriously apply everywhere. Things became a little complicated with working with family and hours were cut down to 6 hrs a week. It was just better than I stopped working and now my new job is Looking for a new JOB! The boys are enjoying their summer. I take them swimming nearly everyday. I've been going out alot with friends and making alot of new friends. I never knew how Divorce would effect me and all this time I was trying to avoid it. I feel a big weight has been lifted in ways and in other ways I feel the pressure of being an offical single Mom, just dealing with everyday struggles. I'm just taking one day at a time and know that things will and are going to be ok. I'm greatful for such great people in my life. I have the best friends and I love them so much! The boys are doing good. We are still adjusting into our apartment life, the boys have met some friends that live near us and we play with them at the pool. I would love to post some pictures but I've not had the chance to take any.

What has happened lately?

We'll to make a long story Short, Steve came home from Korea on this mid tour and decided to file for Divorce. I was hoping that when he came home we could have mended some mis-understandings but he had already made up his mind.
It was of course heart breaking for us. I'm still trying to make since of the situation. I know I must be strong and continue to tell the boys their Dad loves them, but they do feel bad about it. The boys and I have moved into a nice Apartment to start a new life for ourselves. I've been busy with the move, and getting the kids settled and starting to register them for their schools and keep up a postive attitude for them and myself. It's not easy though. I know I am being watched over and there is a great peace that has been with me, though the pain and loss is sometimes unbearable. I'm sorting through those feelings you go through when something this drastic happens. I'm doing good though. We dropped off Steve to the Airport on the 9th and the kids seem to have settled down and we can resume our transition back to it just being the 4 of us. Now that's it's become a perminant situation and not a temporary one. I have to be Strong so that is what I'm doing. Thanks for all your prayers. I'm so glad I have great friends and family to help me during this difficult time.

HAPPY 4th of JULY!!!!

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Quinn's New toy

I spotted this at a garage sale on one of our Rainy days. Quinn's in the Thomas phase and he loves riding on this thing. Even Kylor and Orion can still ride on it. Choo Choo!!!!!

Audrey's new hobby!

Ok! I've been going through alot lately, I'm not going into the details on that right now. I decided to get this scooter to ride around with my Mom and friends who have bikes of their own already, I got it from a nice friend in my ward for $750.00 not bad huh...I'm just waiting to get my license part done, then I'll be legal.

Kylor's 7th Birthday!

We planned a big party for Kylor with 9 kids coming, unfortunately only one came. He still had a great time having his Mario Bro's Party, just more Candy and prizes to go around. He got lots of fun things for his Birthday! I can't Believe Ky is 7 now...he's growing so fast.

Hill AFB Air Show!

Books signed by a few Thunderbird Pilots!

We went to this June 6th, we had a great view and alot of fun seeing all they had on base!